感受

刚看完一部日本电影——我的女友是机器人，有些感觉：
初次的见面，是时间和空间相恋的萌芽
是命运，是缘分
你我的相识，并不是巧合
我在笑的时候你在哭泣
你在笑的时候我在哭泣
这不是讽刺
而是感情旅途的开始
也许你并不知道
我的心是一直有感觉的
我能感受到你的心
可是，你可以吗？
离开的背影，是冰冷的
千叮万嘱不想要别人看到你的背影
难道就这样离开了？
毫无眷恋，毫无怜惜
但我知道你的心是热的
为了让你走得放心
我会紧紧地闭上眼睛
直到你真正的消失在我眼前
但你的气味，你的声音，你的样子
却像空气一样无时无刻不在我的身边
时间
能够改变一个人的外貌、体能
它无法改变人的信念、意志、情感
我希望，60年后的自己
仍然能抱着你
轻声说一句我还能感受到你的心

waiting........

Just now I played basketball with a group of people, strangely I felt very comfortable with them. Usually I dun like to play with a big group of people, except that if we are very close friends. Then I wonder why I feel comfortable with them. The only reason I could think of is that we have a common interest——release our soul in the world of balls…….Why is it so fascinating? Because that is the only moment when u cannot sense sorrow in the deepest of your soul. What u can feel is only satisfaction when u score. There is no betraying, ruthless, heartless, merciless, emotionless, and callous. Conflict between teammates is unevadable, but that is not important. Do u understand that good friends or teammates need to undergo a period of tough time in order to develop a tacit understanding. haha, we may want to call that period “Activated Complex”. A period when bond breaking and bond forming at the same time…….At the end, everything will be fine, bond is formed. We can’t just give up because of the conflict, that is not strong enough to break anything. However, it can act as a catalyst for the team work…….and it will be regenerated at the end of everything. This is really what I think and what I hope. If teammates do not agree with me or they really do not have any will to maintain the team, what I can say is only regret. Think of the fun we have, the perfect cooperation I have, the deep conversation we have………..oh, my god……..will all of these be gone? Just like the wind, vanish in silence……..I want to catch u, but u are just too far…………what I can do is just waiting………

疑

我终于明白……
一些东西，一些事情真的无比脆弱
两人之间擦出的火花固然艰难可贵
但要使火花冷却熄灭实在简单迅速
能做的只有——遥念
是时候再次改变我的性格
牵挂也是一种错
关心更是一种罪
结果
不是任何人的问题
只是我的期望和情感并不能与现实相符
士为知己者死
也罢，空口无凭，毫无经历
在这辽阔的世界上
真能有如此深情之士？
疑之……

改变

五年前，当我离开那片生我养我的土地时，我曾给自己留下这样一段文字：
寂寞是我唯一的感觉
冷漠是我唯一的态度
呆泄是我唯一的表情
思念是我唯一的朋友
回忆是我唯一的动力
孤独是我今生的宿命
生存是我那残酷现实的躯壳!……
从前一切是这么的无助
然而
光阴消逝而过
有或多或少的改变
每当夜阑人静之时
不禁轻敲心门自问
有谁曾在我静谧的心湖上激起一份涟漪呢？

再次开始写blog

呵呵，不知道哪来的动力，突然又开始碰blog这个东西了。记得好久好久以前，也曾经这样听着同样的歌曲，双手在键盘上飞舞。以前的blog已经成了历史，就让它过去吧。而现在呢，展望未来……今天是什么日子？记一下，2008年11月20号，庆祝新blog的诞生……